Discouraged

It is hard to sustain this alone, yes, alone. I was inspired before and I once did believe that age wasn't a deciding factor. Perhaps, you were right my friend. That they do not hold to them the values we envisioned and the men we try so hard to mold them in the making, seems so distant.

No longer is it about expectations. Rather, it is an impossible dream.

No longer do I feel like talking about it anymore.

No longer do I feel the necessity to expound the wisdom and mechanics behind it.

For the vision is not shared. Therefore, the attempts just prove to be futile.

I blame myself for not being able to inspire enough.

I blame myself for not having enough wisdom and experience to see this develop.

I blame myself for the lack of lateral thinking skills to circumvent this problem.

I blame myself for not seeing this earlier and stem it at the root. Perhaps, I can't at all.

I can only blame myself and my arrogance.

All is left is to allow nature run its course. Men may propose, but it is Heaven that disposes.

Since apathy is in the air, then let apathy be the one that teaches you. For I am now too, apathetic about it as well!

Discouraged.